Tuesday, March 6, 2012

Meditative Texts






Since my sister was diagnosed with cancer, I did not spend much time updating my blogs. It, of course, was just way out of my focus. All throughout her sickness, I questioned my role in life, and had to reorient myself to the universe at large. I've always been a big believer in meditative practices. Before she got sick, and my boyfriend was out of town, I used to come home every day and read my bible and meditate for about an hour just to relieve the stress of the day and bring my mind back to a true center for focus. Lately, I've been trying a slightly more organized form of meditation, while reading about techniques to improve mindfulness. Thus, my spare-time reading has been mostly philosophical. I've also just begun my first semester as a grad student!
As a way of connecting more fully to the "ordinary" things that surround my life each day, I've started a new blogging project called "My Journal in Pictures". It is a daily blog journal, mainly consisting of a few pictures of things that stood out to me during my day, and a few sentences to recap the highlights of my day. It's all about seeing magic in the ordinary. Right now, the text I'm reading on meditation is called "Beginning Mindfulness" by Andrew Weiss. So far it is a really great, no-nonsense introduction to zen-style meditation and daily mindfulness practice.

Tuesday, September 27, 2011

Reading Manfield Park


Right now I'm reading Jane Austen's Mansfield Park for the first time. I must say that at this point I'm very much in danger of becoming a Janeite (sp?). Which reminds me, I really need to read that work by Rudyard Kippling. So far, I'm appreciating the novel in a way I've never appreciated Austen's writing before. There are really only two admirable characters in the whole novel. Not only this, the good majority off the characters are more than off-putting. I could never suffer being in the presence of, as Jane would say, a Mrs. Norris or a Miss Bertram...but then again, we HAVE all suffered through meeting with or being around these types of people. This novel seems to be a particularly good pairing with the rest of the late 18th century literature we are studying in one of my classes. The majority of our class time is focused on Samuel Johnson, and this novel of Austen seems to be very representative of many of Johnson's deepest sentiments. Now I just need to start looking for that copy of Northanger Abbey I keep saying I'm going to buy...

Tuesday, July 26, 2011

I Have A New Project!


So, I have a new, cool project that I will probably never finish but am incredibly excited to start! I want to create a genealogy! It's going to take lots of research and goodness knows what else...mwahahah. I get giddy any time I think of doing research for something I'm not required to do in a class. On that note, I just read a non-poetic work by D. H. Lawrence for the first time in my life. Why didn't someone force me to read it earlier?? I have in my possession Four Short Novels: The Fox, Love Among the Haystacks, etc. I just read Love Among the Haystacks. I never really had to learn anything about D. H. Lawrence, so while I am sitting here at work on a very boring Tuesday I think I will have to raid my college's online databases for a while and then post my findings. I also have Fantasia of the Unconscious and Psychoanalysis and the Unconscious with me, but I'll wait to move on to those until I have finished the short novels. Now I have to go and find some books on how to do genealogical research...

Monday, July 25, 2011

Going Forward with Summer Reading

I've just finished A Confederacy of Dunces along with A Midsummer Night's Dream...both of which have a LOT of medieval references. The play definitely renewed my faith in Shakespeare. Reading Hamlet was so traumatic for me, I decided I officially hated Shakespeare up until A Midsummer Night's Dream saved his reputation =). I read Hamlet for the first and last time when a good friend of mine needed help with analyzing it for an intro to drama lit. class. Horrifying is the only word for it. I'm sure it must be great to see on screen what with all the completely insane people running around and eventually massacring one another...but it was kind of irritating to read. Anyway, since last semester I've had a bit of a prejudice toward Renaissance literature. I took my long over-due first half of British literature course. It was all gravy (for me anyway) until will hit the Petrarchans (Sydney, Spencer, Shakespeare, etc.). They all just seemed completely whiny, love-obsessed, and stuck in the general Renaissance zeitgeist. I don't know -- the medievals just seem so much more creative to me.  While Sydney's speaker boohoo'ed and begged his girl for ages all to the effect of his never understanding that she just won't give it up, Chaucer was writing about a woman caught having sex in a tree by her much older, decrepit, not to mention blind husband who regains his sight at quite an untimely moment. On this note, it is funny that Ignatius J. Reilly also like to reference Chaucer considering how lewd and "decadent" his writings could be at times...

I'm still waiting until Wednesday to pick up the holds I have at the library. I hope they don't put them back before I get there. I'm supposed to be reading The Hunger Games next. I also need to find a copy of Northanger Abbey for my mom and myself, possibly at the book shop in the library. I'm looking forward to writing a little more in-depth about A Midsummer Night's Dream and A Confederacy of Dunces, but for now my brain is tired. Feel free to comment if you have any reading suggestions.

Sunday, July 24, 2011

Thoughts on Austen's Persuasion


Austen's novel Persuasion was published posthumously (after death) along with Northanger Abbey. According to some sources, she began writing it not long after Emma and "completed" it a year before she died. Interesting enough, both Persuasion and Northanger Abbey were not titled by Austen herself. Apparently, Austen had referred to Persuasion as The Elliots, which honestly makes much more sense to me. While persuasion itself is definitely a running theme in the novel, and the word is repeated many times over throughout, it is by no means the absolute focus of the novel. The novel itself seems to revolve heavily around subtle dilemmas in family relationships and the dichotomy of family by blood versus family by nature.
The book itself gives the reader a lot to think about when compared to Austen's previous novels. While Pride and Prejudice and Sense and Sensibility are rather overtly didactic and heavily influenced by their Enlightenment era, fictional predecessors, Emma zeros in on painstaking character development and superb construction of conversation between characters. Persuasion seems like a unique balance between the two writing styles -- it traces the character development of Anne who gains more confidence in her own moral judgments and that of Captain Wentworth who learns to prize moral fortitude and conviction over his personal emotions and ambitions. At the same time, the didactic theme of Persuasion still works its magic throughout the novel, questioning the relationship between the persuading and the persuaded and how this relationship is changed by differences in class, character, gender, and economic position.
Though being completely awed by Austen's rapidly increasing writing abilities, I still had an overwhelming feeling that she would have wanted to rewrite this novel a few more times before publishing it. I was really shocked by the way in which the novel ended -- nothing but a very concise summary that seemed more like the ending to a fairy tale than the natural result of the trials and tribulations of such realistic characters. There was still so much more that could have been done to explore the outcome of some of the lesser characters in the novel while still tying up all the loose ends of the main plot. It seemed very hurried and (dare I say it?) somewhat lazy. In addition to that, the character of Mrs. Smith is still bothering the heck out of me. When Mrs. Smith believes that Anne is going to marry her cousin Mr. Eliot, she attempts to persuade Anne that Mr. Eliot is a very good honorable man. Of course, both Anne and the reader learn somewhat surmise that this is not true. We even learn for certain that Mr. Eliot is a terrible man from Mrs. Smith. When Anne asks why Mrs. Smith tried to completely deceive her, she answers very unsatisfactorily that she believed Anne had already truly formed an attachment to Mr. Eliot and she did not want to insult her by proxy. So, by that logic, she should have just kept her mouth shut and not said anything pointedly mean; instead, she actively tries to seduce Anne even further. Anne is VERY keen on this sort of behavior when she sees it in Mr. Eliot. Mr Eliot is fueled by completely selfish motives and is only charming and bubbly because he is trying to trap his flies with honey. Mrs. Smith blatantly lies to Anne in a way which might have persuaded Anne to make a horrible, life-altering mistake just for the chance to gain some economic stability through Anne's assumed influence. Is she not JUST like Mr. Eliot? Why does Anne still choose to associate with her after this? Why does the reader not receive evidence of  mortification from Anne, even if only inward?
On the whole, I was really impressed by the novel, but like many of Austen's works it leaves much to be debated if you really look close enough.

Also, I found a really awesome website about Jane Austen. Check it out: Jane Austen's World

Friday, July 22, 2011

Summer Reading Binge


So, some time around late June or early July I usually start a summer reading binge where I pretty much read anything I can get my hands on that I won't have the pleasure of reading when school rolls around. For my birthday I decided to buy a few books for the Friends of Jefferson Parish Library which has a non-profit store located at East Bank Regional. One of the books, Reading Lolita in Tehran by Azar Nafisi, has been the highlight of my summer! If you have any interest in early 20th century world literature and even just early 20th c. American literature, you can't possibly overlook this book. Nafisi somehow manages to present the reader with a deep, intricate analysis of writings by Nabokov, Henry James, Jane Austen, and F. Scott Fitzgerald, while relating and contrasting the themes of the novels to the joys and sorrows of those who experienced or participated in the Iranian Revolution of the 1980's. By the end of the book, I felt like I had also become one of the Nafisi's own beloved students -- that I had been imparted some kind of deep, secret knowledge about humanity, literature, and the relation between the two. The last time I read something of this personal magnitude was last semester when I was doing research for a Chaucer paper and decided to read The Consolation of Philosophy by Boethius. So amazing! I feel like Nafisi's memoir also gave me a greater appreciation for Rumi, a muslim Sufi poet of the Medieval period with whom I fell in love with back in my 2009 reading binge. I think it was also the mind blowing analysis of Pride and Prejudice by Nafisi that prompted me to finally read the copy of Persuasion I managed to get from Borders before it went out of business. I think I will save my discussion of Persuasion for another time though, since I have a lot to say on that subject as well. For now, I'm going to start compiling a reading list of things I may or may not read next =).

Thursday, July 21, 2011

Welcome!

Some say that New Orleans is a place weighed down by its past, doomed never to improve or flourish. Some say its a cesspool filled with nothing but slobs, drunks, whores, and well, you get the idea. Still there are others who say New Orleans is a safe heaven for the past, a place where remembering and reminiscing isn't scorned or mocked. They say it is a place where you can be whatever and whomever you please. All of "them" are, of course, correct. New Orleans is both the place of dreams and where dreams die. It functions in much the same way as literature does -- it is a testing ground for humanity and imagination. Growing up here, I was exposed to just about every type of elation and suffering a person might imagine, and it made me probe deeper into life as we all know it. Literature, art, and music have been a great means of doing such probing, and I hope to use this blog as a means of introducing great literature, art, and music that will either challenge others to think or invite them to enjoy.